"Dear Jan and VNW,
I’ve had an emotionally challenging semester in 2013. Needless to say, my meditation practice is not disciplined or existent these days like it was in the summer. I think my reason for not meditating consistently is because I don't sit soon after waking. I want to have a cup of tea first and then of course that's the end of the meditation before it even began. Can you comment on that? I need to practice Jan or I'm gonna have a little crack up. I'm looking forward to keeping up with all the great things to come from this ministry (VNW)."
“So what's happening with my morning routine? “
We are all different, so I'll come from myself on this one. My body/ mindtype in 'Ayurveda' is the vata dosha. That means I have a lot of air in me and little solidity. My routine in eating, sleeping, and living habits can waver like the wind unless I am more diligent about my self-discipline. Without my discipline, I can tend towards odd-houred meals, poor eating choices, or skipping meals, and this leads to sluggishness, flatulence, or a reduced inspiration for life and knowing what I truly need or desire more of. So this understanding with needing a routine in my meals helps me with understanding routine in other parts of my life.
First of all, life does flow like the tides. Remember in our Vipassana 10-day we noticed how a 'release pattern' would come in, begin to build, try to overpower us, we'd emotionally be at the depths of ourselves, then the wave would crash, and we'd have the best day of our life. Then the cycle would begin again after some time..
Such is all of life. For a few months, I may be on a great cycle of meditation where i am consistent, disciplined, and learning a lot about myself. Then things begin to waver. I find other things to do, a different routine, I begin indulging in coffee in Facebook in reading the newspaper in sleeping late in the new class I'm taking... and after a few weeks of experiencing that, I have a realization that this isn't working for me as much as what I was doing before. I was climbing before, yet now I've plateaued.
And now with this ability to see my past and feel my previous efforts in relation to what has become the new norm, I'm able to gauge which feels better for me. The wave crashes, and a new cycle begins. I now return to my previous routine yet with an added zest and even new ways of doing it that are more effective than before.
It ebbs and flows. You're about to go back out to tide to begin building a new morning routine experience for yourself. You're simply realizing that waning on your routine creates 'such and such results, while waxing on your routine creates 'such and such' results. And based on that you're ready to choose your new Adventure.
With opening up a new office, and redoing our website, and creating new products for Vipassana students, I too find my routine not so grounded in the past month. It's one reason this weekend I'll sit for a few days in meditation. I have noticed for myself that a 'reset button' is needed now and again.
For food, I'll go on a greens fast for a few days every few months (I just finished one). This reduces or eliminates some poor food choices and reunites me with my health goals. I choose to be able to jump easily, to have 100% mobility, good flexion- the ability to stand up straight for 15 minutes easily-, strong immune system, solid balance, I choose to live in my healthy body for a few hundred years...
For my sleep patterns the same thing happens. I'll stay up later and later until I realize it's not working for me. Then I start over again, which means in bed by 10pm and no computer or TV for an hour beforehand.
And likewise, for my mind. I choose to have my clear mind, with confidence in my abilities, knowing my self-worth, speaking into existence my needs and desires, thriving in my life, so life comes to me with amazing opportunities that uplift my heart daily. And I must 'do the work' necessary to be this clear, and that takes lots of prosperity and self-worth journaling, decreeing, and meditation, so I can image my ideal life into existence and have a clear mind at the drop of a hat.
So life moves upwards by Integrating, then Releasing. Integrating, then Releasing.
I love to listen to a clear-minded guy on YouTube named Tyler, whose real name is Owen with RSDNation.com. He says it clearly; "No one wants to go to the gym. No one wants to meditate. You'll come up with a 1000 different reasons to do something else. That's why I do it anyways. I shut the program up and I build solid consistency in my practice. Even if I get home from the airport at 4am, I still meditate my 20 minutes. Even if I fly into town at 1am, I still go out to the clubs to master myself in social situations."
David Deida, the author of "The Way of the Superior Man" sums it up directly as well:
"Most postponements are an excuse for a lack of discipline."
"Spend at least an hour a day giving your fullest gift so that you'll live a life without regret."
He goes on to say we should each meditate, contemplate, or pray daily so we are steeped in the Source.
"If you postpone the process of submerging yourself in the Source (ie: doing Vipassana) for the sake of taking care of business first, your life will be spent in the hours and days of business and then it will be gone... Your mission is your priority."
He goes on to say, "Take anything away that dulls your edge. No newspapers or magazines. No TV. No candies, cookies, or sweets. No reading of anything at all while you eat or sit on the toilet. Reduce working time to a necessary minimum. No movies. No conversation that isn't about Truth, Love, or the Divine."
At the same time, please be kind to yourself. If your mission in life is to love to live to dance to smile to give grace and to explore (as in Deida's case), then do so knowing that you climb the emotional ladder, the vibrational scale, one day at a time, one choice at a time.
I love you, P, and I hope to hear some peace-filled news from you soon.
May God bless your path with grace and ease,
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If you resonate with the idea of a one-on-one session, I can offer you a mixed counseling/ coaching/ meditation session. It helps to share with someone every few months what's happening in one's life and to receive some guidance and techniques to move those emotions (bringing motion back to emotion).
Followup sessions are $99 and offer an hour of sharing and heart-lifting activities and an hour of guided meditation together to help re-ignite your ability to meditate.. Lately I'm practicing 'body electronics' to help me feel and accept my emotions in this moment, then I'm able to sit and meditate and accept what's happening, without me running from it. It's powerful.